But that little kernel of feeling hurts too much. You’ve felt it. Heard it. but it sounded like a far away voice muffled by the fog of doubt.
But this thing, it was made for you, crafted in love for you.
It scares you because you know deep down in your heart that once you gaze upon it for more than a millisecond, allow your mind to think about it for longer than a blink of an eye,
that it will wrap it’s golden arms around you and squeeze you so tight. Those arms will burn hot and that hotness will ignite a searing fire in that heart of yours.
And that pressure cooker top that you’ve kept on for so long will fly off from joy, and love, and knowing that you have touched that thing that God crafted for you in His love.
That thing is your calling.
I know that feeling well, my friend. The call you hear echoing in your heart. It won’t stop. It’s been their since the day you were conceived. Crafted in love.
Just. Like. You.
It’s scary because it requires you to be brave. The journey to your calling is just as daunting as the journey you must take after you find it.
Don’t mix up the two.
The journey to your calling is just as daunting as the journey you must take after you find it.
It seems like an arduous task to feel through the darkness. To make your way to the voice that is calling you. But you are not alone. There are saints cheering for you, angels singing for you, and God Himself lighting the path if you would follow Him.
Don’t be afraid, you are not alone.
The journey will cause you to build the very skills you need so that when you reach your call you can answer it. And when you answer it you can journey go on from their to fulfill your purpose.
So what does it take?
- What does it take to muster up the courage to say yes, to step outside of your comfort zone and take risks?
- What does it take to become the woman God created you to be?
- What does it take to go after your passion?
- What does it take to be a woman on a mission?
I’ve asked myself this question for most of my life.
I’ve known since I was a little girl that I’ve wanted to tell stories. After having to play a role in my acting class that I didn’t like at 14 I knew that I wanted a production company that created awesome inspiring stories with great roles for women to play. I studied acting in college. Wrote and directed plays, acted in films and commercials all through my 20’s thinking that I was answering my call and following my passion.
But I wasn’t.
I was building an idol.
An idol based on what the world told me that acting and entertainment should look like. An idol that told me how to use my creativity.
Even though I was producing “good work” my heart was still carving out that idol under the surface.
He loved me enough to let me keep working on my passion until I reached a low point in my life. See I thought that my passion was acting all these years. But I discovered my real passion is helping other artists use their creativity to make a difference. To help others understand that their creativity is a gift given to them to give back to God so that He can make the most of it.
The world doesn’t know what to do with what you have because they didn’t create you.
Answering your call and finding your purpose takes a lot of things.
But after years of searching through jobs, businesses, mentors, and one off projects I’ve found that none of it matter unless you do this one thing.
Surrender your dreams, your visions, your ways. Let go of what you think things are supposed to look like in your life.
I know it sounds scary and impossible. It might sound ridiculous and absurd to some of you. Maybe it sounds like going the exact opposite direction of your dreams.
I know I would have thought that if someone told me that.
We are always told to set goals and make vision boards and tell yourself affirmations.
Those things are fine.
But not when you’ve got your own vision what things are supposed to be influencing your vision boards and affirmations.
Let’s be real.
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power of work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations forever and ever, Amen.” – Ephesians 3:20 ESV
Now who’s vision do you want to see manifested? He can do more than we ask or think. More.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11
The hands in which you place your dreams are good. They want to bless you not harm you.
I used to think that God would forget my dreams but He never did. He was waiting on me to let them go so He could let me see His bigger ones.
For some crazy reason I thought that I was a big dreamer. That I could out dream anyone around me. Like it was some super power or something.
But when I let go of my dreams God showed me what big dreams really look like.
So make your vision boards, say your affirmations, put love out there ( I still do it) but do it knowing that His vision is bigger, His word is more affirming, and His love is greater and His will is just.
And stay surrendered because at any moment He could show you a different way, a new solution, a different material to build with or even ask you to rest.
Look I’m not saying that the journey will be easy. It’s going to be tough and their will be trials and temptations and distractions on the way. But it’s worth it if you really want to see God work in your life.
The first step is pulling out your white flag and surrendering.
I’ll be real. Pride is a fighter. But you can do it.
Remember when I said you weren’t alone? Well I have some news for those of you that want to walk this awesome journey with other like minded women. Today I’m helping to launch something that is close to my heart called Grit and Virtue.
Grit & Virtue’s mission is to equip entrepreneurial women to build unstoppable momentum, become spiritually confident, and to never feel alone on the journey.
Grit & Virtue was founded by Charlena Ortiz, lover of Jesus, her husband, and coffee—in that order. She has been hard at work creating a place that inspires, challenges, and educates women on a mission.
If you want to get involved here’s how:
Grit & Virtue has several ways for you to get involved and be highlighted. If you’re a writer or photographer and would like to submit your work, check out their Get Involved page.